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Lack & Abundance

When do you know you've had enough? When do you know when you haven't had enough? How much is enough anyway? Are you willing to settle for enough? And when you've had enough, what do you do?

I think I want to do more, but I don't know what else to do aside from the following:

1) Love the Lord and serve him by doing the best I can do whenever, wherever, whatever.
2) Be a blessing to others by blessing them with whatever I can give.
3) Working on things that I really want to work on, with the people I want to work with, and with the tools I currently have.
4) Learn more so that I can be a better blessing to others though the knowledge I gain and the knowledge I share.

Maybe I've been doing too much but I still feel that I can still do some more. Maybe the Lord is just grooming me for bigger and better things to come, but I certainly am thankful for whatever I have and do have now.

I want to be able to play a bigger part of something -- something that the Lord has willed me to be part of. I have been praying for his revelations as his guidance and grace when these revelations come to me. I want to know when His will for me has come.

For now, I shall do what I need to do to be able to play the bigger part that I have been praying for and prepare for the part that I might come to play.

Yes, I want to do more with my current clients and current projects. I want to be a bigger contribution to them than what I currently am (or am not), and I know I need the grace of the Lord to be able to fulfill what I should be doing.

And I pray while I stay where I am and keep walking until I get where I have to be to serve Him.

CHill...

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