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over.

now i am officially over. done with the stuff i used to do, which are walk around thinking that i'm a loser. how could i live like this? i thought so too.

now i've seen that the only person i need to really love me is me. the only person that needs to tell me that i'm not a loser is me. and the only person i need to believe in is me. self centric? hell yeah.

there is still room in my heart for love. that is, i still reserve some space in my heart to the someone who will inderstand me, be there for me, and love me. i wouldn't want to waste any more of my time on someone that's not gonna give me the attantion that i give her. i wouldn't want to be any more inconsiderate to myself than what i've already been. i want to move on, and that's what i've done.

i know i need to get out and meet people. that's the least i can do for myself. and that's the most i can do right now. although my priorities have already shifted, i know that i have to g…
let the whole net know that i'm a frikin' loser

why does it have to always be that way? why do i have to deal with things i have no control over? have i been a bad man? why the hell won't she love me?

no i don't care anymore. there's no more mister nice guy, and from now on i am officially a charitable narcissist (or did i spell that correctly?). charitable because i give love which is not being returned, and a narcissist because i love myself. from now on, i will concentrate on myself before i concentrate on others.

i've been lifting weights, with my friends paul and belvs. and what i found out about lifeting weights is that you are not challenging anybody -- nor is anybody challenging you. it's more of challenging yourself to get to the goals that you've set for yourself. and these goals don't depend on anybody else but you. am i sounding self-centered? well guess what, i am self-centered. anybody who doesn't center his life on himself is ultim…
spectator sport

how great does it feel to be part of the scuffle? be part of the line of scrimage? the first five? be the anchor? be the main man? or how much fun would it be just to watch, and enjoy?

i admit it. i am not the greatest swimmer or basketball player i know. there are tons and tons of other people that know more and do more than what i do. and knowing this, i learned that it really is very nice to be able to enjoy watching those that are better than you.

swallowing the pride, and taking the back seat to someone more capable, and someone more deserving would be one of the most noble things a person could do. it's like a king giving his throne to the more rightful and capable ruler. for that king, i know i would want to serve if i had to.

i would trade my running shoes or swimming trunks to watch someone much better than i am and enjoy it, than push myself and not accept that i couldn't do better. but if i knew i could still do it, then by all means, i would.

don'…
techie summer

the summer season has started, and what a great way to enjoy it than to start hacking (or coding, for the misinformed) on old projects, and new ones as well...

however, to the un-tech savvy people reading this blog, i'm sorry but i would have to get a little technical. first of, i'd like to start with a snippet of code, which i hope would be helpful to you and your endeavors.


#include <math.h>

int isprime(int n) {
int prime=1; /* assume that the number is prime */
int dlimit, dit;

if (n <= 3) /* the first 3 primes */
return prime;

if (!(n % 2)) /* if divisible by 2 (or even) */
prime = 0; /* it's not prime */

dlimit = (int) sqrt ( (double) n); /* result of sqrt is a double */

for (dit = 5; (dit <= dlimit) && (prime); dit+=2)
if (!(n % dit)) /* if divisible by odd numbers */
prime = 0; /* then…