Mental Blabberings

... and counting. The 21st is a special day in my calendar mostly because it's the day we count one more month my girlfriend and I are together. So what can I say about the special day? I get reminded how blessed I am to be healthy, able, and productive in a relationship. I get to reflect on what has happened in the past few months and see in what areas I can improve on -- not only in the relationship, but also my life. I get to start looking at my plan(s) and evaluating whether I've been making progress. Aside from these, I get to celebrate the relationship with my loved one -- maybe not on the same day but close enough to be able to be able to enjoy each other's company. There's the phone calls, the emails, the IM's, the SMSes, and the dinners we share. I get to appreciate these things more as they come and I especially appreciate it when I realize that I can personally still improve. There's a lot to be said about being thankful, but there's also a lot to

I was YouTube surfing and I stumbled upon this beautiful lady with a set of beautiful songs. I know some ladies I've met in my life who can relate to this one. Chill.

So I've always wanted to write since the last time I did. Now however, I don't feel like writing anymore. I'll find my groove again some time I hope.

There are a lot of things going on -- I miss writing, but I need to go deal with things in the here and now. Chill.

So it's a few days since I've moved in last Saturday into this new unit I'm renting for myself. It's nothing spectacular, 32 square meters all to myself and the occasional visitor. It's a place where I can be alone and rest, relax and learn, and even be creative and productive. The part I love the most is the independence and how everything inside that space is either totally under my control or can be controlled by me. I decide what internet service I'm going to get, what couch I'm going to buy and put in, what bed I'll buy to replace the bed I'm using, what new TV set to acquire... Pretty much what I put in there is not subject to debate or discussion, because basically that's all me. The next best part is the space -- just being able to be myself and alone there is very comforting. To know that when I lock that door, who I am in there nobody else will be able to see or question -- not that I do a lot of questionable things in there, except for

So I'm sitting at a Cafe having the prelude to dinner alone enjoying a chicken ceasar salad. I forgot to bring reading materials with me -- my copy of TIME magazine is at home, and Newseek is with my girlfriend. So I figure, instead of reading what other people write, I go ahead and write instead. Today is a particularly long day -- I've hit a mental block trying to figure out how to approach a particular problem in the current project I'm involved in. Although taking full ownership of the project was my idea, I think I've put myself in a position where I'm not very comfortable -- though I love the pressure and challenge, this may just be still over my head and out of my experience at the moment. Whatever I learn in this project should allow me to level up in many aspects of my personal pursuit of improvement and excellence. This week was spent with sleepless nights and a re-programmed biological clock. I had gone back into working in the US timezone -- particularly