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Long Week and Mental Blocks

So I'm sitting at a Cafe having the prelude to dinner alone enjoying a chicken ceasar salad. I forgot to bring reading materials with me -- my copy of TIME magazine is at home, and Newseek is with my girlfriend. So I figure, instead of reading what other people write, I go ahead and write instead.

Today is a particularly long day -- I've hit a mental block trying to figure out how to approach a particular problem in the current project I'm involved in. Although taking full ownership of the project was my idea, I think I've put myself in a position where I'm not very comfortable -- though I love the pressure and challenge, this may just be still over my head and out of my experience at the moment. Whatever I learn in this project should allow me to level up in many aspects of my personal pursuit of improvement and excellence.

This week was spent with sleepless nights and a re-programmed biological clock. I had gone back into working in the US timezone -- particularly Pacific Standard Time -- closely coordinating with the US team. I love the interaction and relatively low latency in communication (IM/Skype calls are definitely better than email). However it gave me problems trying to normalize after being able to address the immediate issues. I really think I shouldn't do that anymore, but the situation called for "a fix we needed yesterday" so that was a special circumstance.

Tomorrow is a particularly eventful day -- I'm finally going to move to a condo unit *alone*. After having fun and spending the last year living with some housemates, I spent the week getting the required paperwork and formalities with moving into a new place done with. Most involved cash, contracts, and some more cash. Starting tomorrow, I'll be on my own again which although I don't particularly miss I would definitely enjoy.

So after a long week, I'm looking forward to a new beginning. I tend to like beginnings more than the endings, especially if memories tend to cluster around sporadic moments in the middle. My life usually gets more interesting in new beginnings; somehow I must learn to keep the momentum so that every day is a new beginning.

That's not a bad motto, if I may say so myself: Carpe Diem is a little cliche`; "every day is a new beginning" sounds good to me.

CHill.

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