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Late Night with Dean Michael

It's the start of the semester, and a new beginner. But how could things be better now than they have been before? What could be so special about this semester, compared to all the other semesters?

I've been spending time with a lot of people not in the usual 1 degree connection -- spending a couple of hours with acquaintances and the not so close friends. I've been enjoying learning a lot of new things about what's happening in the lives of other people besides those whom I already know. It's also nice rediscovering how making friends is, and how much I've missed out on while chasing after the people I might have never been able to get to know more. Maybe a few years ago, I was too full of myself that I want everything done my way, and that I feel the joy of being able to do things my way. But now I have learned to let go and let things be.

Things may not seem what you think they are. Sometimes, things are just what they appear to be. Sometimes, what you see is all that you get, and all that you can every get -- any more and it's just from your imagination. I tend to think that things happen because I made them happen, or that they're meant to happen, but now I let go and found out that things happen because they do. Otherwise, I get disappointed in a lot of things I shouldn't be worried about. And sometimes, I take for granted things that should mean a lot to me.

The past few years, I have limited myself to interacting within a controlled shell, and an environment in which I have the most control as possible. Now, I take risks, and go to places I've never been before, and do things I've never done before. Now, I talk to people I've not talked to before and now I like doing it. It's rediscovering your environment and learning to live in it once more. But more than that, it's rediscovering myself and who I can be. Thanks much to the people around me who have taken the time to actually try and spend a few hours with me and introduce themselves to me.

Thanks to them, I have found new venues for interaction, making new bonds and keeping the old. I've found the treasure that most people only seek. Now I have found what I've been missing all this time.

Chilled for life...

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