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i have been happy for the past few days - and it feels great!

i havent been naturally happy for a long time, and it feels great to be alive and happy again. i realized that whenever something you do doesnt make you feel happy, you should most probably stop doing it. this is so especially when you start to think that you're not only being unhappy, but you are also making other people around you unhappy.

distance separates people, and sometimes, distance can bring them together - ironic, but come to think of it, it can be true. i never thought that i could be happy by letting other people go and be themselves and not force myself onto anybody. and i am glad that i stopped doing it because it didnt make me happy, and because stopping made me so much happier.

i forgot how to be myself, and it took other people to make me realize who i am. and to those who read this, please take my advice - dont let yourself lose track of who you really are. it takes a lot more than realization and contemplation to get back to yourself, and you may never be able to do it alone.

i thank my friends for being there whenever they are, and not necessarily only when i need them. true friends need true friends to be friends to themselves.

so do yourself a favor, and enjoy being yourself, because otherwise, no one else can enjoy your person.

chill ya'll! ;-)

ps. the date was great, and i hope we could do it again some time. =) <*>

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