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Barely Breathing

I am barely breathing, and I can't find the air. I haven't had a smoke in 3 days. 3 days! But then I'm not yet shivering, and feeling hungry all the time (not that I don't eat all the time, but that's something else).

I really just love getting a call from my cousin (thanks to Sun Cellular, with that 24x7 unlimited service). Everytime he calls, there's always something happening -- something to talk about, and something to laugh about. I personally like laughing -- a lot. I live a very clowny life, and I appreciate happy people around me. Especially if I make them happy, or at least make them laugh.

I remember times when I just be my goofy self and start doing stupid funny things when I'm with my housemates. Sometimes it's something I say, sometimes it's something I do. Sometimes it's something I ask, or a sly remark. Sometimes, it's just when I laugh -- and I don't hold back laughing. Then that's just pure fun, and a very very nice time.

Nowadays, I appreciate the time I get to spend with family very much -- especially when you're almost always away, and you just get to spend so much time with them. It's amazing how a change in your life could do a lot of things in terms of your mentality and outlook. It's something else from just reading about it, to writing about it. And it's a very very welcome change.



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