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Hiatus...

I've been out of the blogging scene for quite a while -- I don't even remember the last post. I've been to so many places (well, not that many), and gone through so many things, and have met so many new people, that it's really just a chore to actually write everything down. But then I must, and just after reading inspiring stories I'm in the mood to write. So then I'll get to it.

There are some things in life you can let go of -- sometimes it's other poeple. Just when I thought I was going to stop hurting people I love, I end up hurting the person I've genuinely loved since well... I really don't remember the last time I fell in love like THAT. So there, the only person I really truly loved, I managed to hurt and break her heart. All I could be is sorry for who I am and what I do to people, that sometimes it's just not fun anymore.

I remember telling her that "You shouldn't be sorry for who you are..." -- but right now that's the only thing I can be because I am who I am: sorry. But no sense crying over spilled milk, it's better to go look for some other things to cry about.

As for work, I'm having the time of my life (so far). I've been going through a lot of changes and tasks that just breeze me through. I'm taking them on my own pace, and getting to the deadlines as soon as I can. That doesn't include being able to have fun while at it, and I really don't intend to stop having fun while I'm working.

So the pay isn't fantastic (to my standards) but I'm getting by, and I'm not complaining. Not when you're having this much fun working! But then it has got to end sometime... But I'm not waiting for that time to come, I'm gonna have fun while I still can.

Oh, and I'm looking for people to work with on a stream of projects coming into the company. I see that creative thinking, some ambition, and funding will get us somewhere fast. Or not. That I have to see.

So it's been a while, and I've been missing this feeling of pouring my thoughts somewhere people might be able to read it. At least this one comes from the horse's mouth -- or fingers if them horses have any. Anyway, that should be enough for now. I should be able to write a little more regularly now that things are beginning to settle down in this workplace of ours... And I'll be compiling a list of interview bloopers when I have the time, so I'll be damned to see them bloopers online. :D

So until next time, CHill...

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  1. Hmm... About those projects... Any graphics projects coming in for next summer? (Practicum maybe?)

    -Rain R.

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